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like woah...

2009-11-14T06:49:00.000-08:00

o.o... i have to give credit for those gals who always write on their blogs.. seriously who would be bothered to check it like so many times.. lawl.. anyway.. bored... blogger come out.. :D here goes another post!:D heee.. i realised that i have changed so very much this year.. inside especially(of course right)... i experienced so many ups and downs this year... hmmm... cannot believe how dumb one can be. bluek.. i shall leave this stupid and useless post with the lyrics of my fav song(for now..)

that fire you ignited,
good, bad and undecided,
burns when i stand beside it
your light is ultraviolet
visions so insane,
travelling and unravelling through my brain
cold when i am denied it
your light is ultraviolet
ultraviolet

peace to all and to all.. PEACE!!!

HISTORY!!!

2009-06-21T22:06:00.000-07:00

ahhh!!! i like hist but can never do well in it! wat is wrong with me?!? i think i have study disease.. lol... have fun! i can't so.. save me someone!!! lol! peace!

sofi<3

turn right....

2009-06-21T22:02:00.000-07:00

i love this song!
turn right
into my arms
turn right
you won't be alone
you might fall off this track sometimes
hope to see you at the finish line.
yeah..i had real bad experience but.... i guess i could start over... take it slow... its nice to have someone to like.... help you... i guess right now its just not a guy and i'm fine with it.... everytime i here this part of the song somehow i think of my grandad... he was always there to catch me when i fell.. love him... a lot... hope to see you at the finish line...

sofi<3

i'm back!

2009-06-18T02:45:00.000-07:00

hey guys... oh my goodness!! you really need to read this book, 'Children Of the River'!! its amazing!! like its so sad.... sob sob... haha... but really i think its a good read... you guys will really appreciate the thing you have after you read it... hope you like it when you read it... fyi, the first few parts is kinda boring but then it gets better!!:P god bless!

Sofi<3

to my rents'...

2009-06-11T05:21:00.001-07:00

you tucked me and turned off the lights
got me safe and sound at night
little girls depend on things like that
brush my teeth and comb my hair
had to drag me everywhere
you were always there when i looked back
you had to do it alone
make a living
make a home
must have been as hard as it could be
and when i could not sleep at night
scared things would not turn out right
you would hold my hand and sing to me
caterpillar in the tree
how you wonder who you'll be
can't go far but you can always dream
wish you may and wish you might
don't you worry hold on tight
promise you that there will come a day
butterfly fly away

i really gotta thank miley cyrus for writing this song cause it helped me through the times when i was sooo angry with my folks!! haha.. which if you know me well happens loads of times.. haha.. love you to bits ma and pa.. muacksss!! haha
love always
sofi<3

sigh sigh...

2009-06-11T05:04:00.000-07:00

going for hols soon!! but this school holidays has been pretty not holiday-ish... haha.. no idea why. I think its cause of my grades and the numerous amounts of lectures i have been having this month from my lovely and beloved parents but i know its for my own good so.. oh wells.. gotta live through it.. gotta live through life right?!? oh no.. te inspirational side of me is coming out liao.. haha.. time to write more about facing out own difficuties in life. Review after review, test after test.. sometimes you just feel like killing yourself, wishing this whole torturous moment of your life is over! But i'm only thirteen and i only so little yet i complain and think that i am the mosr tires person in the world and end up being selfish and pulling a long face in front of the whole wide world to see.... but after doing all that and being rude to everyone and shitty stuff like that, the next day, when you look back at what has happened, you feel soooo freaking stupid! i mean like come on! you really do feel stupid because you realise that you are so selfish that you dont think of anyone else except you and you make you parents feel so.. so.. disappointed looking at a child who they know that they brought up. It hurts tham so much. Its so easy for me to say all these now but it'll be so damn hard to control myself when i am tired.... thats why i keep a blog and thats why everytime i feel like i should be writing something that i could use for my own benefit in the future and for others to look at, i write it on my blog and everytime i read this blog, i feel so relieved, knowing that 'hey, i lived through that hard time, i'll live through this onw too'.. have you ever felt that way?? last time i only used the blog for cursing and swearing whenever i felt so angry and tired but i guess i have found more use to it not that i am older. I have gone through so many changes lately... inside and out. I feel so much... i dunno how to say it but you know that feeling when you feel that you are getting so mature that your anger sometimes controls you?? yeah i felt that way millions of times and i have been feeling as if i just wanna give up my life so many times and more frequently this year... i'm glad i have a family who understands me, cousins whom i can talk to and non- betraying friends who stay on my side forever.... you know who you are.. and i just wanna say thanks because i bet whatever that you have said to me before, during my tough times, is still in my head.. i love you all.. hugs and kisses!!! :P
love always,
sofi....<3

another lost

2009-05-13T05:40:00.000-07:00

wow, who would ever know that you would miss your dear senior so so very much... despite the fact that she bullied and pulled you r hair a lot last time and turned over a new leaf. became the nicest gal on earth and one second later, her later, she's gone, forever and ever. i miss her, the school misses her, everyone misses her. how could she leave?we miss you gal, miss you a lot. the whole team does, the whole school does even those who dont know you does. why am i talking to someone who's not here?? well maybe she'll hear me out. like how i always hope. hey, if you're there, we love you.. forever and always. we love you......

School, School oh guess what School!!

2009-04-07T17:33:00.000-07:00

ok ya'll hi again., am in school right now so i'm halfway undercover.. shh.. lol.. so tired! this whole week i had netball like three days in a row lor!! Whats that all about! and we lost to juniors!!! how humiliating is that i mean come on!!! their juniors!!! but, ob the other hand, we have been training without a coach and they have... sheesh... and school has been so stressful!! work's all like piling up on me like no one's business and just so TIRED!! ok.. enough of the ranting bout school.. anyhoo... so like liufe has been really boring besides that fact that i have seeing a whole load of 'ang mo' guys and all of them are like... ahem ahem!!! hehe.. cannot say.. mummy later scold lor... sheesh.. but seriously they are just plain gorg!!!awesomeness!! Singapore rocks cause like all kinds of guys who are all well... ahem ahem.. lol.. so wierd calling them tt.. wah..so good to finally let out my feelings bout them.. lets see, my friendship life has been cool besides that time when 'you know who' threw a MASSIVE and i mean MASSIVE tantrum!!! crying some more! i mean hello?!? deal with it! wanna play with balls also cannot! siow ting tong lor! haha!! but really, she has something really own in her mind where everything in her life is controlled by her and her only!! gets on my nerves all the time!!! urgh! anyhoo!!! dont wanna talk bout that anymore, whats done is done.. hmm.. tts what they all say isn't it... hehe.. gosh, i miss papa.. like i'm so used to having his goodnight kiss and his voice telling me that he loves me. not used to not having all of that... hope he's safe and having a good meeting and hope that he knows that i love him with all my heart...(heh.. chim rite??) gtg! love ya'll!!!

xoxo,
Sofilia

he's gone...

2009-03-07T01:59:00.000-08:00

today, i lost someone extremely close to my heart..... someone whom i love a great lot... he is my 'grandfather'. Why i put it in quote marks?Cause he is really not my grandad, he's my granduncle. Ever since i was 7, i did not have a grandad who was really close to me and he was the only thing i had closest to a grandfather. He was the one who consoled me during difficult times in school, needed extra money for school stationary and he was the one who bought me my first digital watch and i would always have a habit of biting on the strap and soon enough it broke.. i still kepp it cause it means a lot to me... too much tt i cant bear to thrw it away.. never ever...Even when i almost failed my exams, he was always there to tell me, "dont give up try harder, you know you can do it"his words, his smile, they are like embosed in my small memory forever and always. gosh, seeing him after a long day of school was always a blessed thing that i would want everyday of my life....he would pray for me everyday.... but i sometimes took granted of him. Not treasuring every moment i had with him thinking tt there will alway be a tomorrow.. i guess not now... he wont be there to hug me after school again or have dinner or lunch again..(he always secretly gets me mcdonalds cause my mum hardly lets me eat it and we would eat it together...)i miss those moments.. i miss him.... goodbye... have a safe trip.. i love you....

Secondary school... missing ya...

2009-01-22T20:22:00.001-08:00

2 january 2009...
First day of school again... sigh... deanna's in a new school and i'm with Kym... It got of to a great start... I met new and awesome frens... We call ourselves thee ees according to fang rong(fangee...),this clique of us consists of fang rong(fangee!!), Rebecca(Beckee!!), Kym(Kymmee!!), Vanessa(Nessee!!), Dom(domee!!) and me, (Sofee!!)... We could all like well click cause i guess we were all really crazy!!! We barely knew each other on the first day and became the best of friends on tt day itself!! can u believe it?? i guess this is friends at first sight now.. lol... see how lame i can get?? (prob got it from my daddy)... anyways, right now, after days spent together, we got really close and shared numbers with each other!!! We could not be any happier.. every recess, we try to play netball whenever we can... vanessa and i are like the netballers, fang rong and beckt are liek out cheerleaders and kym and dom are like the athletes who are good at any sports... lol... recess have been really fun ever since... but i'll still remember de... and her witty laugh... we think bout her sometimes... missing the times we spent goofing ard... I guess life just has to move on... hope she's fine... sigh... yes mum... gtg sweep the floor... sheesh... see ya guys ard!!!!
XOXO, sofi

Hey all...

2009-01-22T20:08:00.000-08:00

hey people of my nations... i'm such a dumb dumb... lost my account... so here's my new improved blog.. hope u like it.. might be kinda lame u noe.. so be prepared to bear with pure dumbness... and corniness... see my life or maybe after life.. alios!!!