Sofi<3

going for hols soon!! but this school holidays has been pretty not holiday-ish... haha.. no idea why. I think its cause of my grades and the numerous amounts of lectures i have been having this month from my lovely and beloved parents but i know its for my own good so.. oh wells.. gotta live through it.. gotta live through life right?!? oh no.. te inspirational side of me is coming out liao.. haha.. time to write more about facing out own difficuties in life. Review after review, test after test.. sometimes you just feel like killing yourself, wishing this whole torturous moment of your life is over! But i'm only thirteen and i only so little yet i complain and think that i am the mosr tires person in the world and end up being selfish and pulling a long face in front of the whole wide world to see.... but after doing all that and being rude to everyone and shitty stuff like that, the next day, when you look back at what has happened, you feel soooo freaking stupid! i mean like come on! you really do feel stupid because you realise that you are so selfish that you dont think of anyone else except you and you make you parents feel so.. so.. disappointed looking at a child who they know that they brought up. It hurts tham so much. Its so easy for me to say all these now but it'll be so damn hard to control myself when i am tired.... thats why i keep a blog and thats why everytime i feel like i should be writing something that i could use for my own benefit in the future and for others to look at, i write it on my blog and everytime i read this blog, i feel so relieved, knowing that 'hey, i lived through that hard time, i'll live through this onw too'.. have you ever felt that way?? last time i only used the blog for cursing and swearing whenever i felt so angry and tired but i guess i have found more use to it not that i am older. I have gone through so many changes lately... inside and out. I feel so much... i dunno how to say it but you know that feeling when you feel that you are getting so mature that your anger sometimes controls you?? yeah i felt that way millions of times and i have been feeling as if i just wanna give up my life so many times and more frequently this year... i'm glad i have a family who understands me, cousins whom i can talk to and non- betraying friends who stay on my side forever.... you know who you are.. and i just wanna say thanks because i bet whatever that you have said to me before, during my tough times, is still in my head.. i love you all.. hugs and kisses!!! :P
love always,
sofi....<3