Sofi<3

o.o... i have to give credit for those gals who always write on their blogs.. seriously who would be bothered to check it like so many times.. lawl.. anyway.. bored... blogger come out.. :D here goes another post!:D heee.. i realised that i have changed so very much this year.. inside especially(of course right)... i experienced so many ups and downs this year... hmmm... cannot believe how dumb one can be. bluek.. i shall leave this stupid and useless post with the lyrics of my fav song(for now..)

that fire you ignited,
good, bad and undecided,
burns when i stand beside it
your light is ultraviolet
visions so insane,
travelling and unravelling through my brain
cold when i am denied it
your light is ultraviolet
ultraviolet

peace to all and to all.. PEACE!!!

ahhh!!! i like hist but can never do well in it! wat is wrong with me?!? i think i have study disease.. lol... have fun! i can't so.. save me someone!!! lol! peace!

sofi<3

i love this song!
turn right
into my arms
turn right
you won't be alone
you might fall off this track sometimes
hope to see you at the finish line.
yeah..i had real bad experience but.... i guess i could start over... take it slow... its nice to have someone to like.... help you... i guess right now its just not a guy and i'm fine with it.... everytime i here this part of the song somehow i think of my grandad... he was always there to catch me when i fell.. love him... a lot... hope to see you at the finish line...

sofi<3

hey guys... oh my goodness!! you really need to read this book, 'Children Of the River'!! its amazing!! like its so sad.... sob sob... haha... but really i think its a good read... you guys will really appreciate the thing you have after you read it... hope you like it when you read it... fyi, the first few parts is kinda boring but then it gets better!!:P god bless!

Sofi<3

you tucked me and turned off the lights
got me safe and sound at night
little girls depend on things like that
brush my teeth and comb my hair
had to drag me everywhere
you were always there when i looked back
you had to do it alone
make a living
make a home
must have been as hard as it could be
and when i could not sleep at night
scared things would not turn out right
you would hold my hand and sing to me
caterpillar in the tree
how you wonder who you'll be
can't go far but you can always dream
wish you may and wish you might
don't you worry hold on tight
promise you that there will come a day
butterfly fly away

i really gotta thank miley cyrus for writing this song cause it helped me through the times when i was sooo angry with my folks!! haha.. which if you know me well happens loads of times.. haha.. love you to bits ma and pa.. muacksss!! haha
love always
sofi<3

going for hols soon!! but this school holidays has been pretty not holiday-ish... haha.. no idea why. I think its cause of my grades and the numerous amounts of lectures i have been having this month from my lovely and beloved parents but i know its for my own good so.. oh wells.. gotta live through it.. gotta live through life right?!? oh no.. te inspirational side of me is coming out liao.. haha.. time to write more about facing out own difficuties in life. Review after review, test after test.. sometimes you just feel like killing yourself, wishing this whole torturous moment of your life is over! But i'm only thirteen and i only so little yet i complain and think that i am the mosr tires person in the world and end up being selfish and pulling a long face in front of the whole wide world to see.... but after doing all that and being rude to everyone and shitty stuff like that, the next day, when you look back at what has happened, you feel soooo freaking stupid! i mean like come on! you really do feel stupid because you realise that you are so selfish that you dont think of anyone else except you and you make you parents feel so.. so.. disappointed looking at a child who they know that they brought up. It hurts tham so much. Its so easy for me to say all these now but it'll be so damn hard to control myself when i am tired.... thats why i keep a blog and thats why everytime i feel like i should be writing something that i could use for my own benefit in the future and for others to look at, i write it on my blog and everytime i read this blog, i feel so relieved, knowing that 'hey, i lived through that hard time, i'll live through this onw too'.. have you ever felt that way?? last time i only used the blog for cursing and swearing whenever i felt so angry and tired but i guess i have found more use to it not that i am older. I have gone through so many changes lately... inside and out. I feel so much... i dunno how to say it but you know that feeling when you feel that you are getting so mature that your anger sometimes controls you?? yeah i felt that way millions of times and i have been feeling as if i just wanna give up my life so many times and more frequently this year... i'm glad i have a family who understands me, cousins whom i can talk to and non- betraying friends who stay on my side forever.... you know who you are.. and i just wanna say thanks because i bet whatever that you have said to me before, during my tough times, is still in my head.. i love you all.. hugs and kisses!!! :P
love always,
sofi....<3

wow, who would ever know that you would miss your dear senior so so very much... despite the fact that she bullied and pulled you r hair a lot last time and turned over a new leaf. became the nicest gal on earth and one second later, her later, she's gone, forever and ever. i miss her, the school misses her, everyone misses her. how could she leave?we miss you gal, miss you a lot. the whole team does, the whole school does even those who dont know you does. why am i talking to someone who's not here?? well maybe she'll hear me out. like how i always hope. hey, if you're there, we love you.. forever and always. we love you......